Making as much time as possible to spend with loves, even if it means utter exhaustion. I’m happy and that’s what matters. This summer will not be wasted for sure.
Hear my heart’s cry
Jesus, my passion in life is to know You
May all other goals
Bow down to
This journey of loving You more
But there’s one thing
I’m longing for
Hear my heart’s cry
And my prayer for my life
Give me Yourself
First polaroid pics with the bestest friend and boyfriend ever. Thank you for the wonderful camera and for driving an hr to visit me after work so that you could wish me a happy birthday. Guess it makes up for not being first on facebook heh.
Woman of God, Woman of Wisdom
Had an “aha” moment while reading a verse on a cup my mom got me (Proverbs 3:18). I was wondering who this “she” was being referred to as and looked up the whole chapter. This “she” is not a woman or any particular person but is actually Wisdom.
It is written in Proverbs 3:
13 Blessed are those who find Wisdom,
those who gain understanding,
14 for she is more profitable than silver
and yields better returns than gold.
15 She is more precious than rubies;
nothing you desire can compare with her.
16 Long life is in her right hand;
in her left hand are riches and honor.
17 Her ways are pleasant ways,
and all her paths are peace.
18 She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her;
those who hold her fast will be blessed.
19 By wisdom the Lord laid the earth’s foundations,
by understanding he set the heavens in place;
20 by his knowledge the watery depths were divided,
and the clouds let drop the dew.
21 My son, do not let wisdom and understanding out of your sight,
preserve sound judgment and discretion;
22 they will be life for you,
an ornament to grace your neck.
I had myself a total-but-mini epiphany. I realized Wisdom in a way refers to women. Wisdom is to be found and pursued, and once having found it (or her), it is man’s job not to let go. Wisdom is a gift from God as women were gifts to men such as Eve was to Adam. And now I understand as a woman’s job, to support and submit to my future husband, how I must constantly be seeking God and learning His Word. In order for my future husband to find the wisdom he seeks, I must first learn to become that woman of God. To learn the wisdom of Heaven, God’s own laws, and not of earthly things.
In order to stand on God’s right hand side in Heaven, I must fulfill my calling and duties as a woman created for/in Wisdom, in God’s own hands, and stand by my husband’s right hand side with my all before I may even enter into Heaven’s gates. It is men who have the authority and women who were created to support them, and to do so correctly, I must fill myself up with the One who created me.
So help me God to keep on yearning for You, wanting more of You. Fill me up, with Your Word, Your Wisdom, and Your love.
“I’ve said to not be afraid to fail, and I still believe that. But I tell you that whether you fear it or not, disappointment will come. The beauty is that through disappointment you can gain clarity, and with clarity comes conviction and true originality.”
— Conan O’Brien
Prayer
Oh Lord please light the fire
That once burned bright and clear
Replace the lamp of my first love
That burns with holy fear
I want to take Your Word and shine it all around
But first help me just to live it Lord
And when I’m doing well help me to never seek a crown
For my reward is giving glory to You
Faith, Hope, and Love
Before I elaborate and edit this post, I just wanted to say - it amazes me how You know exactly what it is I want, but moreso what I need. You love me too much, hehe thank You and I love You too.
He won’t give up
When I look into Your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that I’ve come so far
To be right where You are
How old is Your soul?
I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving You all my love
I’m still looking up
And when I’m needing my space
To do some navigating
You’ll be there patiently waiting
To see what I find
‘Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
I’ve got a lot to learn
God knows I’m worth it
No, I won’t give up
I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts I got, I got a lot at stake
And in the end, You’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work I didn’t break, I didn’t burn
I had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not
And who I am
You won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
I’ve got a lot to learn (I’m alive, I am loved)
God knows I’m worth it (and we’re worth it)
